Cried again, 28th July 2013

I cried on the bed this morning.. I can't remember what were some of the thoughts that ran through my head... But it was painful.. So painful that my heart is very numb.. Things will never be the same again. 

I can never trust him the way I did before.. As gullible as I did. :( I still can't, even though he said he never cheated on me while on holiday. But I feel the suspicion every day.. And it aches me every day.. I just try my hardest to live by my own means and find strength in myself. I can't believe in him though I say I chose to believe him. A huge part of me doesn't believe. 

Will I ever find someone to replace you in my heart? 

Even your status on whatsapp is 'sexay vampy' till now still unchanged. I wonder where your heart really is? 

-Vanessa<3